I have terrible memory and just don't feel motivated to do anything. I always feel like I am stuck on repeat, not necessarily doing anything. I just a teenager and there is not to much I really find joy in. I don't know if its just boredom or what. Everything I do feels like a pest. I don't want to say anything to anyone about this so I think posting this online will make me feel heard without my family knowing. I feel phased when people ask me am I happy, my aunt and nana are the only ones who ask me that so I guess I not a great actress. I would like to work on that this year. I want a solution to feel happy and not this numb, out of place feeling i have if any of you have any idea on how to help me please tell me. I sorry if this seems like an ungrateful kid just whining. I starting to second guess actually putting this out there or just asking in general. Sorry for complaining I know its aggravating to hear me being ungrateful and selfish. Sorry for wasting most of your guys time.